3/10

3/10. 

Any guesses what that means? 
No? 
It's the statistical representation of how much I care what other people think of me. I may not always be satisfied with what I look like but do I care if people judge me and have a problem with how I act? Not one jot. I struggled for a while with trying to please everyone and then Caitlin Moran's book "How to be a Woman" taught me to please myself first and, excuse the language, "f*** everyone else". It's made my life a lot easier. I have respect for myself and I dress how I want to dress and often say what I'm thinking. Luckily I don't have a particularly controversial character but I have been known to correct people if they're wrong and debate heatedly if need be. 

I think 3/10 is a good place to be. The "3" covers the people that require my true attitude and opinions to be altered slightly e.g. my grandparents, some friends, distant family. I don't mind playing down my honest opinions and edgy personality though as sometimes it is nice to take a break. Yes I just described my personality as edgy. I don't particularly like to conform and I'm very critical of the way my generation behave. THEREFORE, I'm not going to try and be like my peers who occasionally act in immature and infantile ways. I'm edgy because I'm at my happiest eating pastries, scrapbooking and/or watching my Agatha Christie's Marple boxset. I don't care if that is considered indie. I wear shirts and jumpers because that's what I have always worn. It is comfortable and smart. Whatever. On the whole I'm happy with how I am. I have a close set of friends that matter the most to me and I think they like me back (unless they are secretly ambivalent to my presence and are actually being paid to keep me entertained and content.... a bit like the Truman Show or something....). So I'm a 3/10 and one of my most valued and closest friends told me she was a 3/10 too. 

What would you say you are? How much, dear reader, do you care? 

nERD